today was SUPER EMBARRASSING DAY. i dont know why but i keep standing up in class at the wrong time, making me seem like i am self-volunteering and eager to answer questions throughout. my ears keep sending wrong signals to my brain, and the brain then send wrong information to my legs, making it stand without me exactly knowing. is that even possible?!

first it happened during english class, and i totally made a fool out of myself for that. yinhui said i was so red oh goshhhhh. and everyone was laughing like mad and i felt so humiliated by my, blurness. then later someone asked a question and answered it herself or something and tania thought that person was also self-volunteering and while i was drinking water, she said i was that someone's idol and i choked on my water so badly that it came out from my mouth and nose (as disgusting as that sounds, tania reallllly is grosser) onto both of our skirts. and so it does not pay to provoke me while im drinking water.

then during cme when mdm ******** asked my group to present our answers and she said "ESTHER's group" but i did not hear the group so i stood up for my group and she was like "so you presenting for your group?" something like that and i then realised she meant my group and not me to answer her question. and i felt so stupid for standing and self-volunteering unknowingly again. i seriously have no idea whats wrong with my legs today.. as if it has a life of its own.

so now i will not answer anyone who i think calls me unless i hear it twice or more. otherwise if they are not calling me and i go to them it will be so malu. gosh i feel like a big moron today. D8

photography early in the morning tmr, i dont want to wake up so early!