the mid years have ended, finally! after days of really last minute studying, its finally over, together with the chinese o level oral. i have a feeling i have OCD, but it may be my subconscious mind making excuses. amath was horrible, i forgot the double formula rule, and there were at least 3 many marks questions on it, and at the last 3 minutes or so, i realised that the formula is actually given! and i didnt have time to solve the questions. grrr. good bye to my A.
physics mcq was bad. i barely completed the first page when half an hour had passed. and i still had 30 odd questions to answer in the next half an hour. probably a checking disorder.

chinese oral - gosh, just the thought of it can make me cry. nerves. panic attacks. mr --- probably got pissed yesterday when i was too traumatised by chinese and ignored him the whole time. grrrr im still pretty bumped about his unfairness. furthermore he didnt even bother teaching oral properly wth.

tuition was just as bad. gave us a list of possible topics and told us to "si cao". okay i am totally paying money just to stimulate my brain.

chionged chinese with mom last night, and was a little more confident then in the day. anxiety levels decreased and neglected emath.

today's emath was pretty okay i guess, since i tried really hard not to check my answers way too many times before answering the other questions, and had time to complete the paper and do the ones i didnt know.

after that, stayed back and prepared for chinese. well, sort of. lala joined us, talked slacked and laughed away. and at 1pm, nerves got better of me. oh gosh i must have a mental problem. anyway i think all these chinese is making me go bersek. ahhhh!

at least its over now, i hope i did ok.. :( the examiner told me to conclude when i was waiting for her prompts because she said i thought for too long. sighs. she barely prompted me, and i didnt have much to say. there was always this awkward silence every now and then. furthermore the question was pretty random and out of the blue: "should schools allow the public to use their facilities on weekends?"

oh wells wells wells,
let it be done.

which reminds me, i totally wrote crap for lit because i only read through the quotes just before the exam heh.