im so relieved that i am in hwachong; it still feels so unreal. i reached school exceptionally early and i couldnt sleep the whole night because i was so excited~~
no doubt, hwachong was more fun than njc. there were games and cheers and songs, and interaction between og members. there were even chinese songs. im really so grateful to be accepted here.

however, i didnt make many friends nor talked much to anyone, which made me feel like an antisocial. i dont dare start a conversation with people i barely know though i know that is stupid and i have lack of initiative yadda yadda. however i made 2 friends who were not from nanyang, my first friends; though i know very well that three's a crowd. :(

there were lots of nanyang girls, st nics girls and hc boys (obviously). im not used to having guys around and i think i was acting like a total prick. and i kinda felt a little, left out sometimes because most of them have partners already and i dont. and it was quite depressing when you had to have a partner to dance with during mass dance and i didnt.
but then i thought of nj and i remembered to be grateful that at least im here.

the people in my og are pretty nice and easy going, though actually i do feel intimidated by them.
and i feel really ~uncomfortable~ when they ask questions during truth and truth like which guy do i like in my og when i barely know anyone. or telling them "honey i love you" so that they would laugh which is nearly impossible because im not a funny person. ha. ha. ha.

but other than the awkwardness and lack of friends, i feel extremely blessed to be in hc. it has always been a dream, but i never knew one day it would come true. ~_~