i am a loner in my school.
i do not talk much, i do not join in discussions, i do not have anyone from my og i can hang out with, i do not participate in the games, i have no partner for dance, i do not dance. i go to the toilet, and stay, hoping dance will be over when i return. when i return, its still dance. i stand at the back, everyone is dancing. everyone is cheering. everyone has a partner. i drink water. i wish this will be over soon. more cheers...

i guess there is a price to pay for coming into an elite school. 400 over girls are from nygh. they all have friends and know each other well enough to be who they are. they talk, they laugh, they eat together, they dance, they play, and they are on an almost same wavelength as the 400 over hcboys.

i dont even know why i dont participate in the activities and discussions. i just cant bring myself telling things to people i barely even know. and these people dont even seem to be genuinely wanting answers unless its from some boy. and i am not a very loud and sociable person tbh, and its so tough to try to carry out a conversation. the whole time i just feel like an awkward outcast.

i cant wait for lessons to start, when i get fixed classes and classmates i hope which will be better.

i registered for my subject combination wrongly when i was appealing, i landed myself in such crap. i am not too sure if i can change it tomorrow, and will probably be scolded by the staff for being so irresponsible. but i have been mulling over this the whole day so i guess im not very comfortable with the idea of taking bio. please prayy hard i can change my subject combination.
sighs sighs sighs.

and, $!#%^&!!
im not happy today. :(