faculty outing at supperclub yesterday was good, despite the pretty small space, lack of food and lack of ventilation. true to the pictures, there were beds. and large pillows which probably got all dirty at the end of the day thanks to spilt drinks and shoes stomping on them.

honestly the event was pretty boring, but company was great. our class mostly just sat at our place near the corner and soaked in the atmosphere. or wonder what was happening because we were often blocked by the people standing. we also went to the toilet, which was a mix toilet, to "chill out". there were 2 separate doors for the male and female but they actually lead to one big toilet. interesting but, very queer.

we played with churnhoe's camera a lot. spammed random unfocused photos with harsh flash. well its a sturdy camera..

after the event, we went to raffles city's burger king. i ordered the most pathetic looking chicken tenders, which was totally a rip off. leif was conning meiqi into thinking he was eating qinhong's blood, which freaked her out a lot. then we decided to stuff all our fries into our mouths at one go, and leif stuffed i think, half of his packet. siiiiick. i drank delicious (alllllmost alliteration, one more worddd~!) barley. smacks lips ^^

after that, shared a cab home with the other people staying around.

lovely night it was, indeed.

today was weird at the end. got all frustrated with myself at chem, because i had no clue what the teacher was talking about. and the rest of the class seemed to follow. and we had this mini quiz and i couldnt answer 8 questions. out of 10. well, later on i stayed back and asked the teacher some questions and finally cleared (hopefully i can applyyyyy D:) my doubts.

and for a pretty long time, i never felt so scared//worried//upset.
i hope my grades will start showing signs of improvement, and that i will keep my gggood friends for life. i just hate how i usually screw up my friendships in one way or another.

stressed over GPP tonight, which is due tomorrow, then theres econs project and physics project proposal which are all due by friday.

oh today for some show and tell what you think is art thing, my classmate showed her art portfolio. all her drawings are like prints. and realistic. and beautiful. and ... wow. if i can draw half as nice as her, just half, i would drop out of school and earn a living as a child artist. seriously. okay no more child, but still young enough to set me apart from the other amateurs. ahh why am i talking like that when i cant even draw for nuts. well life can be so unfair. i should just quit complaining.

its late but i dont feel tired. maybe mentally exhausted, but i feel like going to school now and sleeping on the bench. idk what im talking about anymore, my tummy is grumbling.

listening to colin firth sing our last summer feels so nostalgic~~ ahh calmsss my nervesss, soothes my sensesss.