what's the use of scoring straight As when everything i do disappoints them.
what's the use of working hard to do well when As dont make me happy.

ironic how my mother scolded me for not bothering about the family and being selfish and giving her presents made of leftovers and last minute work everytime and only when i feel like giving, when i thought of what to give her for the past month already.

:/ it puts me in a dilemma, since shes seems so certain that whatever i give comes out as crap.
what's the point of putting in effort to get something she is going to hate?

the point is, there's no point!
Esther's gonna find something and give her something that she will like!

new lease of optimism flowing in my blood.
my new year's resolution: think positive!

go go go! delude myself no more!!!!!