Boy you know you get me high
Wont you take me on a ride
Tell me where you want to go
Tell me where you want to go

Top of the World by the Cataracs is like a drug; it makes me feel so out-of-the-world, as if my mind is detached from my body and my soul is floating freely. it's addictive, especially the high pitched parts. it should be illegal.

popping 9 pills a day could be distorting my thoughts too.

been down with food poisoning T_T my stomach could not stop gurgling, as if there were a billion volcanoes erupting simultaneously. and there was acute pain too, it's not a nice feeling at all, didnt sleep well of course. i was reminded of this classmate i have, who cried because her stomach hurt like crazy and she couldnt move at all. and some guys went to get her a wheelchair. i thought i might be going through what she was too because the pain just came so suddenly when i was at the stables (refer to next para) and stayed on for 2 more shit days, and i didnt cry because im brave like that :)))))

went to the Rider's Lodge in malaysia where i rode on horses for the first time! like in complete control and not those pony rides in the zoo. it was quite an experience :) especially when we rode through the oil palm plantations in the heavy rain, and we were all drenched from head to toe. it was soooo cold, but the horse was emitting so much heat. i felt like lying on its back and hug it close to me in the freezing rain, and let it lead me to safe havens. hahaha. it felt pretty etheral with the rain trickling down my skin, and we rode on gallantly despite the weather. i just kept thinking about Australia (the movie) and cowboys. ~sighs~

oh my ass hurt after the riding, just saying.

word of the day: cater-cousin - an intimate friend.
awwwwwwwww

i dont want it to end. right now, im putting in more effort trying to store happy thoughts into my long term memory space. im afraid one day i'll be so overwhelmed by unhappiness i forget everything else. or when things change until what was once, never will be.