oh my gosh this is going to be a pure rant post. im in major deep shit now, one leads to another and nothing can be done to help this situation or make it right oh my goshhhhhh and i ask someone for advice and all she said was im in the wrong. mentally swearing oh man thanks needed the salt to my already open wound ha so this is this what friends are for, telling you where you gone wrong and then leaving you the lurch, delicious. if i have known i wouldnt even have said anything oh gosh can i just turn invisible now and idk fall sick tomorrow i dont want to face people and i dont even know how to answer them. i wish i have someone i can trust and turn to and just talk things out together. i have chem and math and physics homework due tomorrow which i havent started, rotting my life away i deserve to just rot in some abyss i dont even know man. i wanna take a shower now and temporarily escape from all these crap but a shower now will make alot noise and wake my family up probably and if they see me showering in the middle of the night they will suspect i am suffering from depression or mental illness idek man idek..

what should i do now? is so worried.