too afraid to take a step forward, too afraid to take the chance, too afraid to show any sign of weakness, too afraid to open up, too afraid to talk much because, too afraid to face monosyllabic replies, too afraid to try, too afraid to fail.

feeling something i shouldnt be. pushing away feelings i dont want to feel. living a seemingly meaningless and uninteresting life. im so bored and restless that sleep is my only escape.