sometimes i dont get what you are saying and why you are acting this way and i guess you dont think i can understand either so you dont tell me what you are feeling and why you are feeling that way and then you proceed to do something which i dont understand again and you seem so exasperated and helpless and i feel so useless and awkward that all i want to do is to take you in my arms and hug you real tight and let you know that you are not alone.

but i cant do that because i am nobody to you. while i try to put myself in your shoes and try to conjure up something encouraging something practical something relevant with the million things racing through my mind, i find myself too insecure too uncertain to tell them to you. i wish i am able to break down this invisible wall between us. i wish you would allow me to and i wish you would help me.