why do we have to go and make things so complicated
i see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated

i feel like i finally understand what this song means. the past few weeks have been emotionally draining. one moment i feel ecstatic, the next moment i feel very afraid. one  moment i feel excited, the next i feel regret. one moment i feel loved, the next i feel hated. one moment i feel your sincerity, the next i feel your aloofness. all these emotions are starting to have a numbing effect, making me feel more indifferent than ever. it's an escapist defense mechanism, really. i want to go out and develop my photos but its raining. why do you say yes when you mean no? why do you pamper me with your honey-coated words and make me believe them? why do you tell me it's alright when you know it won't? why have you gained my trust only to break it so suddenly?

kinda knew this day would come; it came later than expected. i dont know what's up with life man. i dont know.