enabled my facebook web chat to send some documents to a friend and i see your name, lingering amongst the top. like i actually need any reminders of you. i like the ring to your name. the curl of my tongue when it meets with the "r"s. i miss you, so i play the songs you ripped for me. i play the song you recorded in the toilet. your voice, it sounds silky. like beancurd. i feel like eating cold beancurd. it goes into a crescendo. it sounds awkward. i like awkward. i like it when you're awkward. it sounds rough. it makes me uneasy, but it is addictive. it stops. i dont want to stop listening. i watch the video you are embarrassed about. your singlish. oh gosh you make me cringe. time flies. funny how how the dynamics change. you be more comfortable. i be more nervous. you be the absence. i be a presence. you be the choice, i be an option. you be the wait, i be waiting.