i no longer sleep on my right,
because even when my eyes are closed,
i see your tender face so close to mine
i hear the words you softly spoke
"talk to me, Esther, talk to me"
"i love you, i love you, i love you"
"we will make this work"
"i won't ever want to see you cry again"

i felt safe nestled in your arms
your presence quashed my deepest fears
and when i woke up, you were still here
we hugged long but we had to go

and gone did you.

i no longer sleep on my right
it's so exhausting to go through this every night.